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I want my mother to say sorry
for the aluminum bat she shouldered
the night before father's day
and for blaming me for her broken nail,
the bleeding skin underneath.
I want my father to rethink whom he tells
to act their age. I wanted my father
to stop drinking, to stop smoking, to stop
speeding off in his lunula-white Escort —
the pink design of squares a blur
of fingers — every time mother screamed
about the dragon's lair of dirty dishes.
I want him to apologize for my asthma,
for his cold shoulder as mine smelted
with a bruise. I remember
those strawberry-red condoms I found
when I cleaned the car; zip-lipped,
I never told her. I found your poem
while scouring your desk: petite Filipino wife,
the army, Lupang Hinirang. It was next to the book
on infidelity. I want you to rethink leaving.
You've scarred every Christmas; it's now
an anniversary of your departure
instead of Christ's coming. I want
my brother back, the brother I raised —
the son you wanted mother to abort.
I want a thank you
for everything I did that you should've,
for those Saturdays I declined every invitation
so mother could gossip
at the house parties; so you could sleep
like you always did, my brother
screaming for your attention. You were dead.
I want clichés to hold meaning
because no one takes "you were dead"
seriously. Maybe that's why you now sleep
with that Cuban woman in your new marriage
in Florida: the psychologist, animal-lover,
bitch. She says He's just an angry person.
and you believe her. He's a lost soul,
lost cause, lost son.
and you nod like born again Christians at a sermon,
bored. I still haven't given it
to you: the card I made that morning.
Happy Father's Day! it says, barely legible,
with heart-balloons, smiling
stars, confetti. You should've seen it, Dad,
you would've loved it.
for the aluminum bat she shouldered
the night before father's day
and for blaming me for her broken nail,
the bleeding skin underneath.
I want my father to rethink whom he tells
to act their age. I wanted my father
to stop drinking, to stop smoking, to stop
speeding off in his lunula-white Escort —
the pink design of squares a blur
of fingers — every time mother screamed
about the dragon's lair of dirty dishes.
I want him to apologize for my asthma,
for his cold shoulder as mine smelted
with a bruise. I remember
those strawberry-red condoms I found
when I cleaned the car; zip-lipped,
I never told her. I found your poem
while scouring your desk: petite Filipino wife,
the army, Lupang Hinirang. It was next to the book
on infidelity. I want you to rethink leaving.
You've scarred every Christmas; it's now
an anniversary of your departure
instead of Christ's coming. I want
my brother back, the brother I raised —
the son you wanted mother to abort.
I want a thank you
for everything I did that you should've,
for those Saturdays I declined every invitation
so mother could gossip
at the house parties; so you could sleep
like you always did, my brother
screaming for your attention. You were dead.
I want clichés to hold meaning
because no one takes "you were dead"
seriously. Maybe that's why you now sleep
with that Cuban woman in your new marriage
in Florida: the psychologist, animal-lover,
bitch. She says He's just an angry person.
and you believe her. He's a lost soul,
lost cause, lost son.
and you nod like born again Christians at a sermon,
bored. I still haven't given it
to you: the card I made that morning.
Happy Father's Day! it says, barely legible,
with heart-balloons, smiling
stars, confetti. You should've seen it, Dad,
you would've loved it.
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find one real bit of feeling
do me a favor
no more love, no more later
this time, just stay gone
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When, When
Its like when you ran over my cat last December and I said it was okay but it really wasnt and you tighten your grip on my arm and I dont care anymore because, fuck, it was just a cat right?
Or when we went bowling and I pulled sevens and nines all night and you bowled strike after strike after golden strike and I swear you were immaculate and floating when you jumped victorious and I sat by the score sheet and all the powers of man and nature and beast and god were barely able to keep my head up and my eyes focused on the ocular feast, the glory of you.
And when we were walking home after the movies and the wind blew acer
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Forgiveness
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When the little girl woke up, she found cookies in her shoes.
It was December 6, St. Nicholas Day, her parents told her. Thats the day when Santa comes and takes your Christmas list and leaves you cookies if you were good, a switch if you were bad. Santa left her cookies! The little girl squealed in delight, in excitement.
Do you want to try one, her mother asked. The little girl put one in her mouth. She chewed. She swallowed. She smiled. It was the best thing she had ever eaten in her life.
You can eat another one, her father said. &
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A bit of a different approach than how I normally write poetry, I guess. If this crosses into sentimentality, I'd like to know. Poetry like this is hard to write well, methinks.
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I usually dislike writings that are intensely personal- mostly because they are usually sarcastic and bitter. But strangely, I liked this.
It was sharp but not sarcastic. It has ironic moments, which isn't bad because (as my Canadian Lit professor likes to say): irony brings to attention moments that are to be learnt from and in some strange way it even encourages kinship.
I wonder- if the events you write about are true, did this poem help? Anyway, I digress.
Poetry like this is difficult (again, in my opinion) without scaring people off with your personal history. But this piece is somehow cautious of that and manages to create a balance that draws readers in. That was long. Point is, I liked it. !
It was sharp but not sarcastic. It has ironic moments, which isn't bad because (as my Canadian Lit professor likes to say): irony brings to attention moments that are to be learnt from and in some strange way it even encourages kinship.
I wonder- if the events you write about are true, did this poem help? Anyway, I digress.
Poetry like this is difficult (again, in my opinion) without scaring people off with your personal history. But this piece is somehow cautious of that and manages to create a balance that draws readers in. That was long. Point is, I liked it. !